My Summer Stay-cation, Epilogue

Posted 2007.07.21 0.00 in Uncategorized by Stephanie

The whole summer stay-cation thread kind of fizzled out last week, last Friday actually. I went to work but I was beat and ended up not working very hard or very long. Pissed off home early and then basicaly spent the next 4 or 5 days slacking off around the house – sleeping, napping, relaxing, and resting.

Basically I just shuffled my time-off back a week, so instead of the week of July 9th, I was off the week of July 16th. Thing is, I didn’t exactly go out of my way to tell anyone, nor did I remember to change my voice-mail message or leave a vacation notice on my email. So what people saw was that I was out of town / hard to find through the week of the 9th, then just vanished the week of the 16th.

Anyhow, back to this past Thursday.. went in for the morning to take care of a few minor crisises and that’s when it hit me.

I don’t like my work any more. It’s not fun any more.

I haven’t felt like this in about 7 years. This week off has helped in a way, helped me recharge / keep my sanity / whatever. But it’s also harmed slightly in the sense that… this is what I want to do right now, at least for the short term. Just screw around the house, and not worry about shit.

Now it’s Saturday and I have to return to the rock pile on Monday, I’ll have a zillion voice-mails, emails, faxes, and stuff all waiting for me, people will be all panicky and upset due to my absense and I’ll have a bunch of fires to put out. And the prospect of all that, in less than 48 hours, has made me feel very depressed right now.

I wanna be retired.

Shades of Doubt