On Being Broken

Posted 2009.03.27 13.15 in DID, Pointless Blather by Stephanie

A while back I was rambling about CT scans and head-worms and stuff.  I still haven’t got the results back from that – either the truth is too hideous for the doctors to contemplate, or maybe they just lost the paperwork. The results came back today and they were “inconclusive” – so on the one hand, yay for no tumors or brain-worms, but on the other hand, no explanations for the searing stabbing pains, either.

Anyhow, this past week I’ve been growing more frustrated and upset about the whole concept of mental health, or the lack thereof.  Like, what’s the benefit?  In evolutionary terms, where’s the biological or genetic imperitive that has allowed mental illness to be a reality at this point in our existance?

I’m not saying I’m nuts, but suffering depression counts as a mental illness.  I don’t know if Prosopagnosia or Aspergers are considered mental illnesses, but Aspergers is described in the DSM-IV so I figure that puts it in the ballpark. (I haven’t been ‘officially diagnosed’ as Aspie but unofficially, by people with considerable experience in the area. And I do meet all the criteria listed in the DSM-IV.) Anyways – so what’s the point / benefit / advantage?  

Why do these things exist?  Why are there such things as delusional schitzophrenia, OCD, paranoia?  Is mental-illness something that only affects humans, or can other animals get these things too? Are there paranoid monkeys and OCD gorillas and schitzophrenic apes? Is mental illness something we should be evolving away from, or is it something we’re evolving towards?

If there is some particular benefit to depression, I’d love to hear it.  Other than the obvious of course – after all, who can deny the clear advantages of wildly varying sleep patterns, wildly varying appetite, self-destructive tendencies, and a plethora of random aches and pains and headaches – not to mention the best part, just generally feeling miserable all the time.

I don’t really know where I’m going with this ranting, but it’s been building up all week.  There ought to be an answer.  There must be an answer.

One Comment

  1. Violet says:

    Nothing in here is specifically DID related but it references other posts which are.

    And there is an ‘evolutionary’ advantage for DID. It helps you survive otherwise unsurvivable trauma.

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