No Surprise

Posted 2010.01.13 20.08 in Pointless Blather, Uncategorized by Stephanie

So I was feeling a little more out-of-place than usual, a little more wierd, less normal, and somehow that got my mind thinking about Aspergers again.

There’s lots of different online tests and quizzes, and I’ve taken many of them over the past few years. I found one that seemed particularily good today, which was quite long and evaluated a number of different things, with some questions measuring for Aspie traits and some measuring NT (neuro-typical) traits, and others being either irrelevant or set to gauge authenticity / honesty of the subject.

In the end, it gives you two scores – how you rate as an Aspie, and how you rate as an NT.

My outcome (as seen in the above screen-grab) really comes as no surprise. The graph takes a bit to figure out, but essentially they measure six areas on a 1 to 10 scale, for both Aspie and NT response. High scores on the Aspie side and low scores on the NT side… yeah.

Oh and incase it isn’t obvious, the scores don’t indicate if you are good or bad in a particular area, only how much or how little your responses in the given area correlate to either NT or Aspie baselines. Eg. the ‘talent’ and ‘compulsion’ headings don’t mean I’m massively talented or massively compulsive, only that the way I express my talents and/or compulsions are very Aspie and very non-normal. Conversely, my ‘low scores’ in both sides of perception don’t mean I’m imperceptive, just that the way I perceive things is neither normal or terribly Aspie.

As an aside, I don’t understand why they chose to colour the graph with blue on the NT side blending over to red on the Aspie side. Maybe it’s a rainbow symbolism, but it makes me feel like there is a subconsious weighing or ranking, that one side is better or worse than the other. I think they should have used a circular gradiation instead of linear, to differentiate that low scores are in the middle and high scores at the edges, regardless of which side of the graph they fall on.

Of course, like any of these quizzes / tests, there’s always room for error or incompleteness, and misunderstandings. Like they asked if when I’m concentrating or thinking, do I tap my ears or push on my eyes. No I don’t. That’s wierd. I do rub my lips and pinch my nose though. That’s perfectly normal (isn’t it?) and they didn’t ask that. There were questions about what other people think, like do they think I’m wierd, do they think this, do they think that? I had to leave a lot of those blank because how do I know what people are thinking? Unless they specifically tell me – and some do specifically say I’m wierd.

Every now and then I think about getting an official diagnosis, but then I wonder if it’s really necessary. Would it be expensive? Would it help or hurt? I take exception to the wording that I’ve seen used in some of these things – the idea that Aspies are suffering, impaired, and need to be treated. I guess some might, but I don’t feel like I need to be ‘cured’ of who I am, or ‘treated’ for being different.

That keeps putting me off – I don’t want an official diagnosis if they’re just going to start treating me like I’m ill and need to be fixed.

In The News

Posted 2010.01.13 11.35 in Sports by Stephanie

So I was listening to the radio news the other day, and they were saying that the Toronto Maple Leafs hockey team was worried that their fan base among young people was shrinking. A representative was saying how  young people are more interested these days in technology and electronics, and so the Maple Leafs were moving to embrace some of these new ways to get and keep fans.

Now, I enjoy technical jiggery-pokery just as much as the next geek. Yes, I do in fact have the Maple Leafs’ app on my iPhone. As apps go, it’s well-made, was free, and does what it’s supposed to. So yay for that. However, an iPhone or Blueberry app is not going to make me back into a Leafs fan. Yes, I used to watch all the games, I used to know who the players were, used to know where they were in the standings.

I do believe that embracing technology and electronics is a good thing, and it’s one of those chicken-soup things; whether it helps or not, at least it can’t hurt.

However, speaking strictly as an outsider, someone who doesn’t do sports, I do have a tiny suggestion for them. Maybe I’m way off the mark on this, but maybe they’d be able to attract more fans if, like, they could just try and suck less?

I mean, it’s great that the TML app now gives me game times and tv channels for every game, and instant updates on scores, and lets me read box-scores of past games, and shows me up-to-the-minute standings, and all that stuff. It’s just, I have no desire to actually tune in and watch them suck all over the ice. I don’t need instant updates on how bad they suck. And up-to-the-minute is overkill, when I can just look once a month or so, to see that yes, they’re still hovering around last place.¬†(Ok so last night they were 2nd worst in the east, 3rd worst overall.)

So, Toronto Maple Leafs – nice iPhone app. But if you want me to actually tune in and watch, or even just care slightly, maybe try and play better hockey?

Oh and – you’re worried about young fans? I’m not young (though sometimes I act immature) and infact I’m entering middle age, but you guys haven’t won a Stanley Cup in my entire life. My generation is having children now – there’s two generations of fans who have never seen a Stanley Cup won by Toronto. Yeah. Suck less.