Grasp of Time

Posted 2011.12.14 14.19 in DID, Pointless Blather by Stephanie

This week went by particularily fast. Or was it two weeks? It feels like only last night I was tinkering with the Arduino 1.0 library stuff. There were a couple weekends in there too, I think. It’s all just condensed into a blur. Stuff happened. I slept. I worked. That could have been any day. Or every day.

This has led me to think more about time in general, and how I perceive it. I think I have a pretty good grasp of seconds, and minutes. Hours are ok. Days… one or two, aren’t bad. When it starts getting up into the weeks thing though, that’s where it all starts to blur for me.

Thinking about it while coming in to work this morning, I feel like I have a fairly good grasp of time, as far back as the day before yesterday, and as far forward as the day after tomorrow. Beyond that though, it all just compresses together.

Except not these last two particular days, they’re very blurry.

I haven’t been able to sleep. My insomnia went into overdrive, I’ve been up till about 4am two nights in a row, but still waking up at the usual time in the morning to go to work. I don’t even use an alarm clock.. I just get up when I wake up, and that happens fairly consistantly at the same time most days, to get me to work on time. Even when I haven’t had enough sleep, it seems.

Needless to say, there hasn’t been anything to report, other then, “Still alive. Sleepy.”

One Comment

  1. Violet says:

    More confusion about time. It’s probably due to time-loss, but could also be due to amnesia. We’re pretty sure we understand now why things get confusing after a couple days; our memories seem to lose their ‘metadata’, if they get saved at all.

    I.e. we remember we did a ‘thing’ but not who was there, or when it happened in relation to other memories. Eg. if we went out for dinner with some friends then to a movie afterwards, we might remember having dinner with one person, and might remember seeing a movie with another person, but could have no clue those happened on the same night, or that there were other people present for both dinner and the show.

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