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A New Day

Posted 2010.01.27 17.54 in Pointless Blather by Stephanie

I’m not over the “flu” yet, but I’m feeling much better. Even parts of me that were feeling unwell before the “flu” are feeling better now.

I feel like the ‘big purge’ that was the first twenty-four hours of “flu” was actually my body expelling negative energies. Once all the negative energies were gone, I just had to recover from the effort and trauma of getting rid of them.

Now I find myself smiling and joking, focusing on my work, singing a bit, and generally feeling good — feeling positive, almost. Granted, I also continue to talk to myself, argue with myself, and hear a nonstop whistling noise everywhere I go.

There’s still dizziness and all the aches and pains I aquired over the weekend when I was “sick”, but then other, chronic aches and pains seem to be going away.

I’ve even found that some of my temptations and indulgences no longer interest me.

Don’t know if this is permanent or how long it might last, but I hope it lasts a good long while.

It feels like a whole new day.

“A Great Day for Canada”

Posted 2009.11.11 0.01 in Spiritual by Stephanie

I am very fortunate. Neither myself, my parents, or any of my grandparents, have served in combat. Both my grandfathers were involved in World War 2, but one took ill and was sent home before shipping overseas, and the other was in the Signals Corps but never shipped out either.

A great-grandfather did serve in the Great War, he was wounded at least twice, and we still have some relics from that time. Letters he wrote, one written from inside a ‘Hun Pillbox’ he had helped capture, another written from hospital as he recovered from injuries.

There is a bracelet that is inscribed “Vimy” and is alledgedly made from the metal of a shell that was fired during that great battle, along with some of his badges and other parephenalia. I never knew my great-grandfather though – any of them in fact. I have no direct connection to anyone who has served in the armed forces, seen combat.

So, what does Rememberance Day mean to me, then? There is one phrase, which symbolises it all to me. “Today, will be a great day for Canada!” This simple sentence brings tears to my eyes and a lump to my throat.

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I wonder sometimes…

Posted 2008.08.05 0.00 in DID, Pointless Blather by Stephanie

…what the hell am I doing? I don’t know. I had a great day on Saturday, it was amazing. It all started with wanting to cut the lawn. A week or so ago a big tree branch fell and crushed my BBQ and damaged my outdoor fireplace thingy… I might have blobbed about it. Anyhow, so before I could cut the back lawn I had to deal with the tree branch. So I did – I got out my swiss saw and I gradually cut it up till it was all made into little logs. I then picked up the branches and twigs and whatnot, and finally was able to cut the back lawn. Early on, I got a small fire going in the fireplace thingy, and gradually while I was making the big log into little logs, I was burning it. At one point, I set my iPod onto some speakers so I had some music. Then I opened a beer, and then another, and so on. It turned into a wonderful day. It was fun like camping, without the 4 hour drive and canoes and bugs. Ok it wasn’t like camping at all but had a lot of the fun aspects of camping. I cooked food on my outdoor fire. I drank beer. I cut wood and split logs. I managed to give myself a few small injuries. All in all, it was a great day. Then Sunday was ok. Not great, but definately adequate. I had a lot of aches and pains though from Saturday. Monday, more of the same. An ok day. Today, the long weekend over, I’m in at work. It was going ok for the first half – an ok day, although the wonderment of Saturday is wearing thin, the residual fun is wearing off… then pow. Unpleasant work stuff sets in, feels like a kick in the stomach, and I don’t want to be here. I want to go home, hide, sit by my fire, drink beer, whatever. All the depression and hopelessness that has been kept at bay since Saturday, is back with a vengance. I wonder sometimes, if there was a class or lesson back at school maybe, where everyone else was told “here’s the secret to dealing with the futility of it all” but I was away that day. I feel like I don’t know how to live, how to deal with it all, how to play well with others, how to just stop caring and stop thinking and just be one of the many ants in the hill, cogs in the machine, just shut up and do your part and don’t question, think, dream, or wonder. Does everyone else, all the time, want to quit, run, hide, scream, cry, shout? Does anyone else want to just put the world on hold, leave the world listening to muzzak while she steps outside for a quick break? Can you hang on a minute? I won’t be long, I’ll be back in five or six years. Or never. Here, listen to some elevator music while I’m gone. If only. I used to scoff at hermits; it’s easy to achieve peace and spirituality, commune with the gods and nature when you don’t have other people in your face all the time. Now I’m not so sure, after all what’s wrong with taking the easy way out? All the modern conveniences are designed to do just that after all, make life easier for us. Maybe that’s the real goal, is to be able to deal with people on your terms rather than theirs. I also can’t help wondering, what’s the point of it all – I mean everything. The plants and trees and animals and fish, have it easy. There’s no guesswork. Their purpose is clear, their imperitive is biological. Why is it so hard for us? Self-awareness and ability to choose: blessing or curse? I look around at the world, how we treat the planet, the other creatures on the planet, and each other. We’re not helpful. I wonder if it’s all a big test, or a big game, and I don’t think we’re the object, or the subject. I feel like the game, the experiment, is the universe decided to fuck with the world, and see if it could survive us. We’re destructive, we damage things. We take what we want from the planet, from the environment, from each other. If we aren’t destroying each other, we’re destroying ourselves. Drugs, alcohol, fast food. Yeah there’s always exceptions to the rule, I’m sure there are people who are good and positive and walk among us spreading peace and contentment and take nothing in return. And we’ll find them and lock them up or taint them or ridicule them. We’re destroyers. And yeah I know this has meandered a long way from me feeling shitty at work to me condemning the whole human race, but when I get depressed and start to question, I just run with it. Now, how about that elevator music?

Canada Day, Afters

Posted 2007.07.02 0.00 in Family/Friends by Stephanie

Well, another Canada Day has came and went. We had a nice little get-together, some close friends, some family, some drinks, lots of food.

Things wrapped up early this year, nobody stayed over, everyone was gone by about 9:00. As always, tomorrow will be a day for sleeping in, and then lots of cleaning and tidying.

People were very generous with their compliments about the food, but I don’t think the ribs were very good. They were tough and chewy, I found. The sauce was good, I love the sauce, but it doesn’t really count if the ribs aren’t good. Maybe next year I’ll make something else… I like steak but I am bad at getting them done to-order. Ribs are ok as they’re all just ‘done’… maybe something fancy next year, or just different.

I also made some vegetable skewers and I thought they turned out ok, except I burned a few of them, shame on me. I liked them better than the ribs – not tough, not chewy, and very flavourful. They were fairly simple although there was some prep work behind them.

The cake was outstanding, it was provided by Get Frosted!. Leanne, I won’t ask for fondant cakes any more – I liked it, but nobody else wanted to eat the fondant. Everybody just loved the cake though – both the look of it, and the taste — outstanding!

Ok, so here’s some simple recipes – giving away my ‘big secrets’ 🙂

Stephanie’s Rib Sauce

One bottle of Master Choice brand, Chipotle flavour bbq sauce
1/2 Litre real pure maple syrop
2 or 3 drops of Daves Total Insanity Sauce
1 gram of Saffron, crushed
Mix the bbq sauce and maple syrop in a large bowl, mix well, then drop in the insanity sauce; mix well, finaly add the saffron, mix well. Brush onto meat while on the grill, and allow the sauce to start to caramelize. The components are all there and work together: the bbq sauce is the base, the maple syrop adds a sweetness that caramelizes and adds that caramelized flavour, the insanity sauce gives it a spike of heat, and the saffron (believe it or not) is there too, a subtle flavour that nobody can place, nobody ever guesses what it is. Makes enough sauce for 3 or 4 racks of ribs.

Stephanie’s BBQ Vegetable Skewers

1 large eggplant
2 red bell peppers
1 sweet Videlia onion
juice of one lemon
2 cloves garlic
1 bunch fresh basil leaves
1 cup virgin olive oil
Finely chop the basil, crush and finely chop the garlic, and place both in the olive oil. Mix well, seal, and stand overnight (or a day or two). Chop the eggplant into 3/8″ thick by 1 to 2 inch long pieces. Lightly coat with lemon juice. Place on a single layer of a pan and broil at 400 degress for 10 to 12 minutes, then refrigerate to stop cooking. Chop onion and bell peppers into 1 inch chunks. Arrange onion, peppers, and eggplant onto skewers. I use bamboo skewers which are soaked for 1 hour in water before use. Before placing on the bbq, brush vegetable skewers with oil mixture. BBQ on low heat for 3 or 4 minutes per side. When done, onion should be soft, peppers starting to char a bit, and eggplant slightly crispy on the outside. Makes about 12 to 16 eight-inch skewers.

So, there you go. Two of my recipes – the Rib Sauce one I’ve used 3 or 4 years, but the skewers one I came up with yesterday.

BBQ Cake for Canada Day
It’s a cake! A BBQ cake!


Posted 2007.07.01 0.00 in Family/Friends by Stephanie

The Day The Universe Changed

Posted 2006.07.03 0.00 in Computers/Internet/Technology by Stephanie

If you ever get the chance, I strongly recommend you watch this 1985 TV series by science historian James Burke.

The series explores the philosophical concept that the Universe only really exists to you as you perceive it. So if you change your perception of the Universe, you are in fact changing the Universe itself.

Burke proves his point by examining various important discoveries and advances throughout the 10-episode series, highlighting how each scientific milestone brought about a fundamental change in the way western civilization perceived their world.

It is a fascinating series. Each episode is very interesting and enjoyable on its own, presenting a lot of information on a certain major discovery or advance. On the whole, however, the series really shines. It helps to illustrate how important our perception, and our preconceived ideas are, in how we view and react to the Universe around us.

Happy Canada Day!

Posted 2006.07.01 0.00 in Pointless Blather by Stephanie

Oh, Canada!